I was a Teenage Feminist

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I’m seeing end-of-the-year collages everywhere, so I thought I would make my own. 
2013 has been a good year for me. I was elected Student Body President at my university (Fire Up Chips!). I made some great new friends. Made the Dean’s List (twice!) and dyed my hair purple. 
But one of the things I am most proud of myself for is finally being able to take selfies. 
Yep. 
Really. 
I remember being in 8th grade, and everyone had a myspace. Everyone. It was before the days of tagging, so you had to upload your own pictures for your profile.
I couldn’t do it.  I thought I was so ugly that every single picture I took was unsuitable for people, especially my peers, to see. I ended up having a photoshoot with a friend, and I only put the pictures online where I wasn’t looking into the camera. I literally had these black and white pictures of me with my hand over my face or facing away from the camera. 
As I grew up (and moved on to facebook!) I got a little better, but as a friend pointed out in highschool, even then I always had to be in a picture with someone. I still wouldn’t publish a picture of just me. 
Finding feminism saved me. It took me years to realize that I wasn’t ugly. That I was taught to see myself as ugly, and to see my worth as being directly tied to what I looked at. I knew this the moment I discovered feminism, but it took me years and years to feel it. 
I finally feel it. 
Not every day, but most days. 
It’s the most liberating feeling in the world, loving yourself. Self-care takes on a whole new meaning when you finally think you deserve it. Selfies allow me to capture my appearance as I want it, they allow me to show myself to the world and say “This is me, and I am hot”. 
I’m still working on some hang ups I have about my appearance. It’s hard for me to leave the house without makeup, and I have a hard time wearing jeans or anything casual. But I’m working on it! And I’m honestly really thankful that I am able to recognize these things as problems, instead of thinking that they are normal or personal failings. 
In 2013 I’m thankful for a lot of things, but one of the things I’m most thankful for is selfies. 

I’m seeing end-of-the-year collages everywhere, so I thought I would make my own. 

2013 has been a good year for me. I was elected Student Body President at my university (Fire Up Chips!). I made some great new friends. Made the Dean’s List (twice!) and dyed my hair purple. 

But one of the things I am most proud of myself for is finally being able to take selfies. 

Yep. 

Really. 

I remember being in 8th grade, and everyone had a myspace. Everyone. It was before the days of tagging, so you had to upload your own pictures for your profile.

I couldn’t do it.  I thought I was so ugly that every single picture I took was unsuitable for people, especially my peers, to see. I ended up having a photoshoot with a friend, and I only put the pictures online where I wasn’t looking into the camera. I literally had these black and white pictures of me with my hand over my face or facing away from the camera. 

As I grew up (and moved on to facebook!) I got a little better, but as a friend pointed out in highschool, even then I always had to be in a picture with someone. I still wouldn’t publish a picture of just me. 

Finding feminism saved me. It took me years to realize that I wasn’t ugly. That I was taught to see myself as ugly, and to see my worth as being directly tied to what I looked at. I knew this the moment I discovered feminism, but it took me years and years to feel it. 

I finally feel it. 

Not every day, but most days. 

It’s the most liberating feeling in the world, loving yourself. Self-care takes on a whole new meaning when you finally think you deserve it. Selfies allow me to capture my appearance as I want it, they allow me to show myself to the world and say “This is me, and I am hot”. 

I’m still working on some hang ups I have about my appearance. It’s hard for me to leave the house without makeup, and I have a hard time wearing jeans or anything casual. But I’m working on it! And I’m honestly really thankful that I am able to recognize these things as problems, instead of thinking that they are normal or personal failings. 

In 2013 I’m thankful for a lot of things, but one of the things I’m most thankful for is selfies. 

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  3. orangeromancandles said: This is beautiful. <3
  4. blissfulle said: I so feel you! And you look AMAZE😍
  5. princess-being said: You are so precious and I love you so much <3
  6. la--amoureux said: I love this post, and those shades of lipstick. You’re beautiful & I hope 2014 is full of selfies.
  7. leadmeouttothefloor said: werk it